I was just thinking, it might sound weird but listen: I want to reach the top and be the best, and for that I need to work hard all the time and not be able to chat casually with others. When I see others doing nothing much then it irritates me and makes me think why do I have to do that much. Then I realized today that other people might not be wanting to be the best. They might be satisfied with what they are and have. They can keep going casually laughing with friends and doing their thing. Then I thought what is the use of doing so much that I do. And it made me sad and irritated. And I lost focus from everything.