Emptiness.

Almost everyone has this kind of day. No one wants to do anything on that day, just sit on a bed of grass and look up at the stars, relaxing and wondering just how big the universe is. But exactly how could he say that to his parents, will they understand it? Have they ever had a day like that? Probably not. As Leon was thinking on this, his phone rang again. This is the 5th time in the last 15 minutes isn’t it.

He picked up the call again, nodding and replying appropriately, let out a sigh and put the phone, screen down, on the table. The work isn’t that much frankly, rather I want to do more, but I can’t find any motivation for it.

It was 7 pm at office and everyone except him and his secretary had left. He called out to Elsa and asked if there were any more important matters to be attended for the day. Elsa went outside, checked her calendar and diary notes, came back in and said, “I believe everything is done for today. Do you need me to schedule something for dinner?”

Leon looked at his watch for a moment and replied, “No it’s okay. You can leave as well. I will be going home as soon as I am done going through a few documents.”

Elsa asked again, “Are you sure you don’t need me to order dinner or snacks?” to which Leon politely denied. She greeted him and left.

Now it is all quiet here. This feels like when I started this. At that time how many people were there? Around 5 including me. Now this firm has more than a hundred people, and yet it still feels the same. I wonder whether that is a good thing or a bad. He shrugged as he thought of this.

He turned around his chair and saw the main street though the full-length glass window. There were a few youngsters walking with a can of beer in their hands, some office goers sitting on the steps talking to each other and going through their mobile phones, and he also saw his secretary, talking to someone on the phone and laughing much. I don’t think she will ever dare to laugh like that in front of me. He thought. Or for that matter, has anyone in office laughed like that in front of me. The thought made him both, prouder as well as a little sad.

He picked up his wallet, shut down his computer and went outside the cabin. While turning off the lights he glanced another look at his desk, the computer screen was still throwing a blue glow on his desk and chair, perhaps from the shut down screen. He chuckled a little and left.

-Siddarth