Uneasiness

What is this feeling of uneasiness,
This emotion that presents everyday;
Is it because I don’t have a reason,
Or a goal, let alone the correct way.

Is it because I lock it inside,
These feelings that rock my mind;
Whether it is love, hate or celebration,
I don’t let others know what I find.

As I wake up, I think about life,
How can I know, what can be done;
What is the right decision to make,
What is it that I need to learn.

This feeling of uneasiness that hangs around,
Keeping me up till two in the night;
Is it because I haven’t find that someone,
To keep myself from this loneliness or fright.

Or is it because I don’t talk much,
Working like a robot all the time;
Putting the career in front of relations,
Without caring to be friendly or kind.

Whatever it is, I want to stop,
This notion that something is missing;
Thinking, I am not complete yet,
Not even knowing how to fix it.

So laying on the bed, I ask you, life,
Give me the reason for my arrival;
I am sure there must be one, and,
Who is the friend, the love or the rival.

-Siddarth

Silent night

#poem #lonely #emptiness #bored #poemsforlife

With an energy of your own,
You spin around, though alone,
You look for people all around you,
A friend, a stranger, any will do.

Then you turn back to have a look,
There is this guy standing there,
Up you stand, and take off the hood,
As he stabs you without a care.

In those last moments you look above,
The snow falls from the sky on the mud,
Tears roll out, you remember the past,
But there is no soul to hold you in the dark.

You smile at how things turned out,
Smiling at that ‘cursed’ life,
And you realize there were things to do,
But you had chosen the path of the knife.

Now that you are down, in this pool of blood,
You whisper ‘finally that life is done’,
Although the feeling still lingers,
Of wanting to hold on to someone.

-Siddarth

Your Time

#poem #life #time #enjoy #people #work #lonely

Let’s not think of earning so much

That you make it a life of loneliness

Let’s not think of Learning so much

Because leaning on someone takes effort too.

  – To the hard workers who don’t have enough time to spend with friends/family

Just a thought

If I was there, on the lonely path, where the flowers never grow and the night never leaves, the silence lurks after every step you take and no being appears within visible range, then would the world feel peaceful or chaotic?

And it didn’t feel lonely anymore

When you were young what did you learn.What did I learn… that no matter what you do, you will end up being lonely“, He said.

She was shocked after hearing this. She had been his friend since the last five years and never heard this from him. She replied, “But I was there with you since so long.”

“Yes, as I said that I learned that when I was young. But things change. I don’t think I feel lonely anymore.”

“But was this true before you met me?”

“It was. Kind of.”

“Kind of?”

“I had a friend who shifted abroad with his parents. He was my bestfriend. It was in 4th grade I think.”

“And you met me in 7th grade. So what happened in 5th and 6th grades.”

“Well. As I said, I felt lonely. I was lonely.”

“Didn’t you have people to talk to?”

“I did. Of course. But just everything related to class courses. Nothing else. And only during school hours. It felt like I was in a completely different world. They were the same people except something was missing. Just because he left, things seemed different.

“Then how did you find the courage to talk to me? And how did we become such good friends?”

“Good friends? Are we now?

“Again with your lame humour. Shut up and answer my question.”

“Fine. Fine. I think I talked to you in 7th grade, or probably you talked to me. Weren’t you the class monitor, so you talked to me. Probably while handing assignments.”

“Aw. You don’t even remember the first time we talked. That’s so wrong.”

“And you say I have bad humour.”

“So funny you are. Shut up and continue.”

“Okay. Well as I said, you talked to me. And then probably you noticed that I used to stay alone and didn’t talk much with others. So you took pity on me and came to hang out with me during lunch breaks.”

Pity. My foot. Don’t make it sound so depressing. I just talked because I am kind of a loner myself. If you haven’t noticed yet. I talk to everyone since I have been the class monitor all these years. That’s why I think I found you interesting. And I wanted to know what you were thinking. That’s all.”

“Oh really. Haha. So then what do you think I think?”

“Anything that is lame. Obviously.”

“Stupid. Go away.”

“Yeah, yeah. Break is over. Man just let these 12th grade exams be finished. I am going to go on a vacation.”

“Oh, but it’s still two months more. Where to though?”

“It’s a secret. Can’t tell you.”

“Is that so? Well then fuck off.”

“Idiot. I will plan something where we both could go. Let’s have a time of our life.”

“That’s more like it. Sid the kid is the deal.”

“Shut up. Let’s just go back to class.”